Only 18.

Yes, I do admit. I am only 18. But soon, I'll turn into a woman. Not so soon, but gradually. I know I am. I even can feel the change in me now. I feel myself growing.

But as I am growing, I am starting to make decisions for myself. Not that I have not before. But I realize that I do need to stand up for myself and know what nourishes me and benefits me as a person. And at the same time, please the other party. I do not believe in being selfish. I know that sometimes you have to. But it doesn't make me feel good deep inside to do so.

But what I realize, and what I need to work on, on myself is to live for myself. To think for myself. To know what is best for myself. To understand myself. To get what I want and get what I need. To feed my soul. Because there is only one me. And I am in full control of what makes me a better me.

I am a fickle pickle in fact. I regret doing the things I do because of not understanding how I feel. But I need to stop that. I need to understand myself like a book. I need to be predictable to myself. I know this all sounds so demanding for myself. But I have the urge to think of long term.

Yes I am 18, I am bound to make mistakes. I might not practice what I preach and bla bla bla..

But I really do have to start living for myself.
Because at the end of the day it's just you.
you.
and you.

It's just me and You.

Do what nourishes you Zoe. You'll see the glow in you, you'll see the light in you. You'll see what you're capable of.
All of us are capable of great things. Just do it. Tomorrow could be a new year in your calender.
Tomorrow is my Monday, tomorrow is my 1st of January. Tomorrow is a new start and I will grow and learn and move forward.

Tomorrow I will

• Be in time for class.
• Have a great breakfast (as always)
• Dress modestly to class/feel good.
• Do work during my free time.
• Do what I have to do.
• Exercise.
• Try to sleep early.
• Try to eat great.
• Pray.
• Be thankful.
• Count my blessings.
• Love the people around me.
• Give love.