Changes

No matter how shit I feel, I always feel the need to give a pat on my back and the hug to the people who get me through the day and the strength that I am able to give the day to.

I've realized that this is life, you're constantly changing, constantly being judged, constantly being feel like you're looked at. But at the end of the day, when you're walking alone, (or not) you realize that you're cool with things. You don't need to justify yourself because you're enough and you just am.

:-)

I am going through changes, this chapter of my life is starting off really differently from the last and I guess that is what makes the story more interesting and difficult and change is constant growth and before you sleep, or before you wake, take a deep breath and be grateful for change and be grateful for the strength that you've bring from within.

I feel content, it's like I do know myself, but at the same time I'm so excited to know and see what strength and what ideas I can bring to contribute to the world, people and society. And the only way is to be open and to accept but at the same time be strong and to speak whenever needed.

Speak and not waste time.

I haven't felt this motivation in a long time and I feel that it is great and this is definitely change.

I am excited!

I went to London today and it as a different but great experience.

Life doesn't have to be happy nor sad. It can be whatever, it can be this or that. Today was as it is and tomorrow will be what it is again. I'm okay, I'm cool.

I'm just gonna move and grow with a smile, confident and happy with myself. I don't need to speak much, I just need to be. Some things in life is inevitable and all you can do is leave the rest to the future or to God to deal with.

But! There are things that you can control in your life and that is : do well in your course, and get closer to God and what the truth is. To grow in faith.

I think I am pretty comfortable and okay with my health and what I feel about food and all, I am okay with yeah.. I'm okay and it's feeling great being okay.

I hope!

Agh!

So, it's my last day in London (sort of) (I can come visit whenever hehe) but yeah, I'm off to Kent. And I am in a mix of emotions. But I guess it's only normal.. showering yourself with thoughts like "will I make friends?" especially being in a different country and all.

But then again, my mind has the will and ability to broaden therefore I shouldn't doubt my future or whatever with negative input and worry that I have no control of! I am excited, for my course, to start an adventure in my area and to also meet interesting people and see how I grow.

All is under God's hands and all will be well. So, hakuna matata.

The more rights there are implemented the more human beings are unsatisfied!
The more advancement and freedom we have, the more we want more rights.
The more brave we get to say what we want to say in this liberal age.
The more we are advancing, the more peace we're finding, and the more strength of speech each human beings possess,

the more we find for things to fight upon!

Buzz in my nose!

Why hellloooo all! It's been a long time since I've blogged. And I am excited about it! :-)

I am never ever stable with my blogging, it's either a sudden blot or splurge on feelings or like random things. Well this shall be one of those sudden rush of wanting to blog, edit pictures and stuff. Probably because I'm in a new location now.

I am in the UK! London to be exact. I've been here for a week... no less than a week and I'll be going to Kent on the 13th. I'll be studying there, doing my degree in Product Design (I am hella excited to keep myself busy and frustated and then wonder why would I ever wanna keep myself busy with assignments) But yeah, it's about time that I get my ass on something and put my mind on passion instead of education and try to nurture passion in product design.

I am such a fan of imagery messaging and functions! And I can't wait.

Aside from this course, Product Design, I'm excited to see what Kent has to offer. A new campus life.. again.. but it should be fine! I am excited. I keep saying that. But new chapters are always exciting don't you think? The saucepan.. what's that word.. (when you w..) OH YES SUSPENSE lol. Yeah the suspense of it and the adventure you're about to venture yourself in. I am excited.

It has been becoming more sweet than bitter though. And speaking of sweet, my cousins have been so great and sweet to me, cooking really healthy food, splurging on me.. and just being so sweet that I do not know what to do except to express gratitude.. and yeah.

It somehow is motivating me to do well, and you know, be successful as the day goes by to be able to give to those who have given me and to bless to those who have blessed me, [and to also bless those and everyone around me by being myself and by offering what I can :-)] because it's through their actions that I have learnt the meaning of those.

Hmm aside from that, I've been sleeping very early and waking up early.. having coffee and breakfast and it's making me feeling healthy and happy. And I hope to keep this sleeping early and waking up early. I love my morning jogs and walks and coffee and breakfast so much. Plus the air's so good.. it's 10:46 am now, I havent taken a walk out.

Anyway I have shitloads to talk about that I don't actually have an organized post. But who caresssss rightttttt? I've been walking to the museums nearby, and I spend like 4 hours in one section and by the time I wanna move on the museum closes. Like the other day I went to the V&A and there was this exhibition called "Disobedient Objects" It was hella interesting. Basically it was about riots and protests going on in the world, human fighting for rights and things like that. Their art and medium used to portray a message for freedom and belief. So interesting.

And yeah.. there's so much to talk about...

I love alt-j

Okay here are pictures of my breakfast. Preston lent me his camera and am I so blessed! I miss taking pictures and I might just take my camera out today :-) I havent taken one out and shot stuff before today might be the start. But idk what to do today yet. We'll see. I'll shower and make my bed.

Anyway yeah... my breakfast lulz.

(Just finished editing them!)
(I just realized how much I miss adjusting curves so much)
(But it gets abit frustrating because it's like you want to achieve that tone but you can't but patience is virtue and yeah)

Pretty pleased with how the colours turned up. Though I'd like to vignette them but the vignette for this software sux can't wait to get photoshop or something but I need to factory mode my laptop cz apparently there's a bug ew.

Okiedokie gonna shower and see what the world has to offer! Hopefully I'll be back with more pix :-)

p/s : i have the numbest feet leg thigh i feel like should i move orrrrrr

A new chapter?

Hello!

I am currently in my cousin's place at London right now. Man things have been weird for me and I have been a mixed of emotions.

Before leaving, I felt like it was the end of something.. and I don't know what that something is. But then dad said that, "It's not the end! It's only the beginning." and that's true, it's the ending of a chapter and now a new chapter of my life - which is a story. And it's continuous, and it's constantly changing and it's on my growth. We grow internally ; spiritually, and mentally and emotionally. May I gain strength through out the day!

It was sad leaving. Leaving friends, leaving parents, leaving a guy..

I cried so many times, knowing that my 8 months of freedom really did draw me so much into comfort and things build upon and with people.

I'm still in the midst of mixed emotions. Everyday! Trying to be stronger and trying to take it day by day and not dwell and worry too much upon the future, and to stop looking back at the past. The time is today and the best I can do to be strong is to be the best I can be today.

I definitely have drawn myself close to God and have to stop taking that for granted. But he has been so good to me.

I just have to be strong, keep my head up high and smile!