So this is it :

Start lymphatic system at 4.45 and see where I can finish at 6.

Then, at 6 I'm gonna do my pilates ^^ and then have dinner and shower again and finish all the tips I have.

And if I am done by midnight/still awake I will do past year's.

Guys, I'm feeling super high unmotivated and it's killing me. So I'm gonna take my time and just relax myself from being too unmotivated by posting some pictures and stuff like that.

I did pilates yesterday because my mum bought this 10 minute pilates work out thing a few years ago and he he he he he I enjoyed it I can feel my muscles aching 8-)

Okay so AFTER I blog, I am gonna go study. I don't know why but whenever I study I feel like I can't breathe and my room light is too dark (really!) although I have a table lamp so.. I'm gonna change it later.

I'm also gonna write notes :3 I have been writing notes though (USING RECYCLED PAPER OKAY!) And I guess I study better that way. And then I read somewhere that your studying improves by listening to classical music and it didn't work for me because instead of concentrating on my studying I was telling myself "you are supposed to concentrate" and concentrating on that.

Am I the only one here who finds it so difficult to just sit and read? And let what I read go in my head.

I can't believe that it's trials and I still feel.. nothing.

I screwed up badly for my last papers and it's pretty saddening :(

But anyway, okay, after this I'll be studying the Lymphatic System. I'm gonna make sure I'll be super proud of myself at the end of the day.

What la dei

Wow this is so cool I am everyhwere. Anyway, I decided to blog so that I would have the mood to study later! :) Whenever I read I just feel automatically sleepy and I know that it's in my head. Okay so I plan to read until chapter 7 today hopefully and then I'd be the happiest girl in the world. Okiedokies it's almost 11.

Okiedokie, actually this blog post is pretty pointless but nevermind.

Anyway, I'll come back later hopefully and I hope that the weather will do me justice today because I really wanna jog :D ZOE YOU CAN DO THIS. Last paper for trials. LAST.

Okay so I'm gonna keep myself up tonight I am gonna study my ass off and blog after this because there is so much going on in my mind. Hold on!

You know that feeling. When you're sleep deprived. And you feel sad. And you think of things that make you sad, instead of the ones that make you happy. And then you start comparing. And then you feel like you have been taken for granted. And you wonder whether people around you care. And then you try to stop yourself from thinking this way because it is so selfish. But right now I have to study. Don't worry, I'm not that upset. I mean this is just a phase. And I guess I need sleep.

+ Wants

Well firstly I would like to state that blazers and maxi skirts are amazing and needed in everyone's wardrobe that is why I really want a white and pink or floral blazer (I've always wanted pink though) and also maxi skirts, beautiful pastel colored ones. Actually, any maxi skirts, pleated or not. I mean they look good with things. And I also am into heels right now and I can't wait to earn myself money to buy them and stuff like that.

I just got up from my nap and I was contemplating whether or not to wake up but the weather's too good. And what made me wake up was the voice in my head telling me to study. And plus, I have tuition at 5 and I need to study before tuition too. And after tuition I'll be having a family barbecue at my house. I'm excited! Though, I really need to study. But I think that I can ask my cousins things and stuff. Because I'd feel really bad locking myself in my room and stuff. Studying..

And also, I'm pretty disappointed because I have been jogging for 3 weeks plus straight but I haven't had the time to these few days and I feel really horrible about it and I really hope that I won't stop it! I really feel good jogging and stuff like that. Makes me feel good about myself.

Lastly, I really want to do well for trials. It starts on Tuesday! And I really want to get good enough results. Mainly to make my parents proud of me. They have done so much for me and I mean the least I could do for them is to just sit, study, understand and get the A's right? Plus I must have discipline and stuff.

And lastly, I can't wait to go out after SPM to take more pictures. I miss taking pictures with my camera, editing them and posting them. Feeling proud of myself.

But right now, my only goal I have set in mind is SPM trials, and SPM. I really need to do well for my parents. I really want to do well. And I also know that I should do it for myself. To get into college and stuff like that. The future is just toooooo gooooood!

Okay I'm gonna wash my face and do some sit ups and study. Bye bye :)

+ I wonder how my brain works.

Hello everybody, this is a picture that I took when I visited London :)

And here are some pictures taken by me by Alfalfa the om-1 :)

I'm taking a break from studying right now and I just cant wait for all of this to be over. But I am obviously gonna miss it. School and stuff. I really can't wait for the time where I would have enough time and money for me to travel. For me to travel different places around the world. For me to gain knowledge. For me to broaden my mindset and for me to interpretate what I think from what I see. I mean, I've said this before but I'm already here. Situated on earth, and it would be such a pity to not be able to see all of it. I mean sometimes you just really wanna get out somewhere because, there is so much more than this and I don't know what this is. But you know.. But then again, with me being a super contradicting person (to myself) I must say that I really appreciate where I am today and the people I know and stuff like that. And I just can't wait to see what happens next. But I should just appreciate each day I have on earth. I'm just so blessed. And it's a shame that sometimes I don't see it. But deep inside, I know I am. 

xx

+Decisions, decisions.

Taken by my Olympus om-1 love you bb.

I'll post more soon!

Hello readers or people reading this or friends and family! Life has been okay so far, good I suppose! SPM is on it's way and I am obviously not looking forward to it at all.

I really don't know how to start a blog post properly anymore. Anyway, I was pretty sleep deprived last week especially during the weekend. Because on Friday after school I had tuition and then another tuition and then I went for Jacelyn's birthday surprise but she suspected ALOT OF THINGS HAHAHA and it was nice we went to the Roost yoghurt place :) HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY GURL.

 And then the next day I had the interact leadership thing and then that night Kavi had a birthday party! And omg I love esther's driving it's truly and adventure I told her "I feel like I'm gonna die, but I know that I'm not." my favourite driver ever. And then his birthday was fun! :D i enjoyed myself and then esther and mindy slept over mine and then we slept around 2+ and woke up at 8/9 to study (good girls) and went for breakfast at lavender and then walked to gianni's for lunch :3

 

ew i look gross here nvm this is real this is me.

                                      

And then after that esther came back to mine to study and stuff like that and whoah i love studying with esther it's the best. And then my parents got back home from KL and my sister bought me the loveliest dress ever in the whole entire world, THANK YOU!

And yeah, school on monday I can't really remember much of it actually.. I was late for assembly and I thought I was early and then I have been jogging alot now adays :) ok so monday I went to school, came home, helped with house chores, napped, got my pictures from my negatives (thank you sister for getting the negatives for me!) and then I uploaded the negatives up to my laptop! And then after that I did my add math hw and chemistry and went for a jog! and then I came home and had the most glorious dinner ever! here's a picture of it :

okay and then on tuesday I came home and did house chores again such as washing the dishes and hanging clothes and helping my mum pluck acelora from the acelora tree! then I napped for 20 mins and then went for a jog and it was good after one round this I said hi to this aunty and she said hi back then the second she smiled then the third she did a thumbs up and then the fourth she pretended not to see me because I guess she didnt know what to do anymore. and then I had tuition that night and after that I decided to stalk molly soda to traumatize myself.

Well, I didn't get to exercise today but I've been doing alot of bio today and I'm gonna continue after this -.- and I decided to go to UK after my spm instead of KL and I hope that I won't be too late..? It's sort of like a bittersweet feeling knowing that you're actually growing up!