I promise myself..

It's 2.25 am and I am finding it really hard to sleep. Well, it could be because of the damn Americano I had this afternoon during my tea time (their brunch time) with Jacelyn and Heng.. But yeah I'm so physically tired but mentally, I am as nocturnal as any nocturnal person can be!

Anyway, I do enjoy having epiphanies and sudden realization on how my perspective of life should be. And I love them! My own epiphanies and realization motivates me and they always make me want to start fresh and new with a different mindset, a different perspective towards life.

I'm super sleepy physically but my mind is so awake.. I've already said that. But I'm gonna list down or divide things that I promise myself to achieve as I am growing. I might fail but hey, setting a goal is always good and well. It makes you stand firm on your ground as you have a vision of what you want and what you want to grab hold off. And then, with a goal you tend to come out with a strategy (I've learnt that in business class) (I so miss studying)

Anyway here goes..

Physical Health!

I wouldn't say I want to be rip as f or whatever but I do want to feel good to look good and look good to feel good but never ever will I over exhaust myself. I have been in fact, exercising 3 times a week and I am pleased with that. On the days where I don't necessary exercise, I do skip rope to just sweat a bit, do house chores, bring my dog for a walk, or go for a walk. I remain active even though I do not exercise. I take the stairs whenever possible, try to reach that part of the ceiling, mop the house, do the dishes.. do the dishes! Doing the dishes would be my favourite workout. And also offer to go down to the shop down the road to get mum something she needs for lunch.

People tend to ask me questions like, "do you have cheat days?" "do you binge eat?" Well honestly speaking, I've never had cheat days.. I tend to eat as healthy as possible whenever I can because I know I'm nourishing my body. And when I mean healthy as possible I mean by getting good whole carbs, fresh and leafy green vegetables, lean meat or fresh meat. Basically nothing deep fried, processed, msg infused.. just real food that we need to get our metabolism going - real food to nourish our body in order to nourish our mind and soul. And yes, speaking of soul, whenever I feel like having a chocolate, I'd have a chocolate. Or a bite of something sweet or what I crave for. Restricting yourself too much would lead to worry, anxiety and just plain misery. I've subconciously had that before and I realize that it wasn't healthy and it wasn't how it was supposed to be. If you want something, and if you crave for it.. your cravings are from within and you do need it to satisfy your soul in order to satisfy your body. It's only human nature! Same like how you need alone time when you've been surrounded by your loved ones. All in all, in terms of physical health, it is important to have a balance. Sleep whenever you feel like it - but try to have enough! Have a good breakfast, eat well and drink shit loads of water.

Anyway, after saying this. I want to achieve a well balanced and healthy life style as long as I can! To have enough physical movement, and also inner nourishment. 

Mental Health!

I have my sad days, and I have my happy days. On my sad days, I tend to go crazy and over analyze and be super sensitive over the smallest thing that seem to matter so much. And ladies and gentleman, that is normal. You think and you feel that you might be the only one who feel that way, but we all go through them! And the only we we can cure them is from within because we understand ourselves so much better than anyone else can. People might say "I understand how you feel." when you confide in them, I do say that to people but then you know and they know that you say that out of empathy, they do not fully "understand" how you feel because you are you, I am me and they are them! But having that "I understand how you feel." gives you that instant comfort - knowing that you're not the only one in the world who feels that way. And it is comforting :-)

So what I am trying to say is that it all starts from within. And the only way to have good mental health is by well, changing your perspective towards things as you grow. Many things in our life is beyond our control.. and it hit me that God is in control of things, really since who else would be controlling the things that are beyond our control? But the only thing you can control in order to deal with things beyond our control is by controlling your mind and changing your view and perspective toward things. It takes time, it really does. But you'll reach there. I know you will. Always believe that in whatever hard ships you're going through, better days are yet to come. 

All in all, when things are beyond your control, when you don't get what you want and when things do not go your way, remember that better things are yet to come. And that remember that you have control and ability to change you perception towards things. The world can be a brighter place and a dark place all by what scope of mind set you use. It's all your choice.

And lastly, I do believe in having a balance of sadness and happiness. As human beings, we bring sadness in our life and we hate it. And then we over come them by bringing out the strength we have always had in us and that's really what makes us mentally stronger. By accepting the balance of darkness and happiness and appreciating them.

So much more I want to say but it might be too much and I am feeling tired.. still.. but physically. But it's a mix match of tiredness it just feel so odd.

In conclusion, I can't really come to a conclusion because life has its ups and downs. But in terms of mental health, I hope to achieve a strong mind with a strong heart. 

Emotional Health!

I believe that our emotional health is affected by both mental and physical health.

With a good balance of both elements and party, you get a good balance of emotional health. 

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All in all, I want to achieve great things in my life. I want to learn how to stand firm in what I believe in. I want to learn how to compromise situations like how a woman should. I want to make mistakes and fight myself out of it with forgiveness and humility. I want to give and receive feelings and emotions with full of sincerity. I want to be a better version of me each day until the day I die! And I bet everyone wants to achieve that. I do not ever want to feel sorry for myself but instead, accept myself for the things and choices I have made in my life. I want to be a daughter that would support my parents after all they have done for me. I want to be a sister who is understanding and patient. I want to be a friend that care and love and would do anything for them. I will try to stop taking things for granted. Yes, life in contradicting. But I guess that is what makes it interesting. 

I honestly want to gain strength and run the last round, run the final KM because I can. I do not want to be "tired of this.." because I am so blessed, I have a blessed life. And with that, the most or least I can do is to give, and be the best Zoe Kan there is! 

:-) 

I want to say more but... sleeeeep is calling me.

It's good to know that you're enough and that you are able to achieve the goals in life you need and want to reach.