+The Man By the Lake

As I lay down on my bed,
My eyes are shut and my ears are awake,
I listen to a song and then I think-
Of the man I saw by the lake.

A beautiful face that sung a beautiful melody,
Oh how I wish that I could be the notes sung in beauty.
And now he is just a memory that provided me solace,
With lyrics so beautiful you didn't want to leave that place.

I still can feel the wind dancing on my skin,
With accordance to the beautiful melody, there is a metaphorical festival.
If only everyday was like this,
If only you could feel love like this.
How great would the world be-
Listening to a melody to feel beauty.

I can't think of anything good night!

+Angst

This feeling is so rare it's that ugh slap slap slap you slap everyone's feeling but deep down inside you know you love them. I don't know. Omg hormones are so weird.

It's that sort of feeling that you start wondering and thinking and you ask yourself unnecessary things that is stupid and also stupid and well you ask yourself questions that would bring your mood down and I'm contradicting myself right now because it's like I know what I'm doing isn't healthy but I'm still doing it healthy as in for the mind not physically ok.

But then again, I'm pretty sure I won't dwell on this for long because I am bringing my dog for a walk later and I will feel better later and I gotta do Mae a blog post :3 FOR IT IS A BURFSTDAY TODAY AMAGAD.

+11.30

I took this picture few days ago :)

I was studying physics while FaceTiming Jasmine who was reading a story book and stuff. I'll continue reading my Physics after this. I had this sudden urge to blog out of a sudden. I don't know, it's therapeutic (to me la).

Anyway today was pretty productive and I hope it would be my last time going out on the weekend till trials! I woke up and washed my shoes likka true house gurl and then bathe Elvis the cutie pie and then took the rubbish out and then went for Dark Knight with Jiew Ann, Mindy and Esther and then went to PP with Diyana! :)

You know what I was thinking in the car, I was thinking of like you know in movies where the main character or someone blogs and they have something to blog about and you wish you could do that so you try it but in the end you have nothing/no topic to talk about. I don't know what I'm talking about la but I wish that I had a specific topic to blog about and stuff and then it'll look good like a pro chick.

And then also sometimes before I go to sleep I always have this weird OCD ADD thing that I recently told Halili about it's like I'll have this random line in my head with a random accent and I really have to say it out loud. I'll contemplate whether or not to say it out loud and I'll say it out loud a few times till I'm convinced. The other day it was : "I don't need slippers to go into the pool" in an Irish/Scottish accent I really don't know but is this normal? Yours faithful OCDC.

Waow what else. I don't know I haven't been taking pictures or writing poems and stuff over here for a long time. I've been pretty busy actually. SPM is so near amagad.

I feel like writing a poem right now! 

The light bulb, it is lighted, it is coated with heat.

Like two hearts that light up, and brightens when they meet.

Fathomless eyes that blinks with understanding,

Diving into each other souls, forgetting about everything.

How foolish they are, to fall like the autumn leaves,

Blinded by a feeling that stole away nothing.

There was nothing to gain nor receive from the start.

And now it was time for them to depart.

And just like that, their story ends,

Faster than the small waves hitting the sand,

The light bulb is fused, it is burnt.

Everyone is bound to get hurt.

I can't really write poems properly anymore idky :( good night!

I've got myself thinking.

I worry about the silliest most selfish things that I can ever think of. And then slap myself with a question ; "Is this even important/worth worrying about?" Many times I do wonder when will I grow up with my thoughts. With my perspective of life. But right now, I am glad that I know this.

+ What!

Has anyone ever experienced this moment or thought. The one where you just sit down looking at something and while looking at it, you're thinking about something and then you're also talking to people and then you think of something that suddenly occurs to you. It just happened to me. It just occurred to me that I am in form 5. I can't believe it. After so many years of being in school I am in form 5. And next year I won't be wearing this pinafore anymore. I wont see all my school friends in school any morning etc etc. None. I can't believe that I am going to the end of this phase soon and experience another step and phase in life. It's so weird when you think about it. It's kind of overwhelming. And I'm starting to get back and realize how it is important to treasure everything. :)

+ I guess so..

Okay, I guess if I stay up blogging then I might somehow make myself motivated to study? I am intoxicated by coffee at the moment. A few hours ago I was trying to sleep but failed miserably so I decided to switch on the laptop (it has been a long time) and blog. After this, I'm pretty sure I'll be motivated to study.

I really do not know what is wrong with me. Why can't I study? I mean it's not like I can but I distract myself too too easily which is not a good thing AT ALL! :( Every night I sleep regretting how I've not studied up to my expectations and I'll feel horrible and it's not a nice feeling.

So tonight, I'm gonna study. I told myself that I didn't want to get back my papers and tell myself "I could've done better if I had put in more effort." I really hope that I won't say that. I really do. This is my last mid-terms and oh my goodness gracious.

Anyway, I have loads to blog about like Esther's birthday and my dog but not right now because there's a lot to write about! Okay, after this I'm just gonna switch on my itunes, and study and pray that I won't get distracted by anything.

And I pray that I would be able to get up for church tomorrow. I cannot wait for all of this to end!

And these are pictures of my trying to camouflage myself within the zebra prints but obviously I fail la aiyok.

epepehepehe eehe e noob!

byebye

LOL

+ Welcome the sunrise!

I was just going through my old phone pictures and uploaded them to my laptop because my dad's gonna trade in my phone. My hair was so long + it was good because it hid my armpit fats. But now the time has come for me to work out and remove them which is good! :)

School was great! If I have time I'll continue later. But now, I've got to get my folio and math and other homework done! Good bye for now or brb or either one.