College.

College has been so good, so far.
I often do miss the people back home. But it's important to absorb the moment as much as I can.
Why? Because I know that I might never, ever get the moment back.

I am constantly dealt with confusion.
But that makes everything fun :)

3.142 is pie

Hello! So quick update on what I have been up to. So yesterday, Halili came over to jog and stayover and before that we had some really hard core dancing marathon (mostly destiny's child and beyonce) We also tried annoying ourselves WITH FREAKING ANNOYING PSY OH GOD. And we took videos and we freaked out at how coordinated we were at some moves and kept on watching it over and over again it was damn awesome yolo to the swag of the fish, quote Kleef "yolo swag fish." Speaking of Kleef, HAPPY BIRTHDAY KLEEF I LOVE YOU IDK IF YOU'LL SEE THIS BUT YOU'RE MY HOMEBODY OMG I MEAN HOMEBOY AND I LOVE YOU. Stay stupid and perverted and lovely and wise and etc etc so glad I got to know you.

And then we played dress up and then we are not 18 yet (lol I'm re-reading this idky I typed this down) and then we went for a jog and while I was jogging halfway I SAW 2 FREAKING MONKEYS LOL. THIS IS NOT THE YEAR OF THE MONKEY?? But yeah, I didn't get blisters this time! ^^

And then Halili and I had a photoshoot (this was after our dancing performance la)

(I am proper Halili is gangster)

(You shoot me down.. but I won't fall..)

(I am TITANIUMMMM)

+

(our personal favourite)

(I have a freaking mullet ew)

(Halili dedicating her love to Gangnam Style)

(expressing expressions)

Okay and then we came back and I made kimchi soup for the both of us and then we watched the video of both of us again and freaked out and then we watched "My Big Mad Fat Diary" (Halili msged me to correct this and we are laughing because it isn't funny but it's worth laughing AT) from Halili's laptop and then we slept. Actually Halili slept first. I was awake till 3.

And it was a great day!

I'm at KL now btw :) I'll be going to the Subang area to check on places to stay and stuff in the morning and hopefully be able to meet up with Yvonne and Mindy! :> I haven't seen Mindy in ages. And I think I might stay here till the 16th till FMFA so I won't have to go up and down and stuff.

Okiedokies till next time homeboys byebye.

New Zealand!

Hey all! So, I went to New Zealand for 8 days and it was the most amazing experience I've ever had in my life (okay la -- so far!) And, ah, well, everything there was amazing. Especially the view/scenery. And the people, and man, I was so attached to that place that it was so bitter sweet going home :( The weather was perfect and everything was just amazing and well, you felt disconnected from the world and at the same time, connected to it. I don't know how to explain. But it's such a beautiful country and I can't wait to back pack around New Zealand once I'm older :)

These pictures are day one and half of day 2. I have tonnes of pictures to post! But I'll post them bit by bit (when I have the mood to!) 

So, this was our first motel room and stuff (although it's only one part of the motel) it's called "City Park Motel" and it's next to this bar and it's really, really nice! And the receptionist told us that she has visited Malaysia and stuff and I asked if she visited Sabah and Sarawak and she was like "Sadly, no." (hehe neither have I. I've visited Kuching la but I was as small as a kucing to remember). So after we settled down, dad wanted Fish and Chips (when you go to UK, Aus, or NZ you just have to try their fish and chips there and idky but yeah).

It was super big bruh. We had to tapao the fries back home. I had grilled cod with salad though :> but I stupidly spilled all of the salad dressing into my fish so my fish was so oily yuck. It's a restaurant + a fish market! And the fishes are so fresh they were practically alive while being dead.

After lunch, we walked to this mall.. and I saw this nice mural painting thing on the way!

And then we went back home I mean the motel (chey) and I decided to go for a walk alone to discover the place so I walked around the housing areas in envy because they were so beautifulllll and then I walked to the park and then here and there and it was nice and then I went back home for dinner!

This was what we had for dinner :

Ye boi left over fries and salad and mussels in a tub. I didn't have fries though. But we didnt buy much because the next day we had to set off to Dunedin! (Man, I love that place).

This was before we left and I'm only posting it because I like how my dad looks at the back B)

And the most amazing parents + greatest couple ever! (not our car btw I forgot to take picture of the car we rented but it was a nice ford with a gps heheheehe so we didn't have to rent a gps so heheeh we saved cost because apparently you'll have to pay 10 nz dollars PER DAY if you rented one).

FRESH FRUITS EVERYWHERE!!!!

COWS AND SHEEP AND HORSES EVERYWHERE!! BUT MOSTLY SHEEP BECAUSE they r cute. All of them are, actually.

My favourite picture of the lot (I love this picture so much I don't know what to do the lighting and everything made it so easy to edit and I only had to adjust abit of the curves!)

Stopped here to go to the toilet hehe (oh there you can see our car!)

And then we stopped at random places just so I could take pictures of stuff (Thank you, Parents :') )

"Take like this yah from this angle." Then they stopped and I went out and took it. I took a picture of this!

And also a random shot of this!

Anyway, these are only like 1/4 of day 2! I've still got more pictures to be posted but I havent showered and my fingers hurt from editing (as I use the mousepad. To me la hehe) Hope you enjoyed the pictures! Stay tuned for more! I really miss editing pictures. And I really can't wait to talk more about New Zealand!

Bye bye for now :)

Eeeep!

Eeeep! I feel so happy receiving positive feedback from my latest post! And it's really motivational and stuff :)

I'll be blogging about New Zealand soon soooo stay tuned!

So, how?

Hello! So, I've been getting questions from people whenever they see me after a long time and it goes like, "How did you lose so much weight?" And stuff like that, and I'd just say, "Oh! I just exercise regularly and eat healthy." Which is basically it! But I decided to go more into it and how I started out and stuff like that. I have a jumbled out mind when it comes to things to say so.. I hope I won't jumble up things in this blog post. Actually, I think I would but nevermind. As long as it makes sense.

Well, I've always been considered "big" or "plump" but people/myself try to make myself feel better by saying, "you're just tall" Well, I know that I was never fat. I was just.. unfit. And I've always told myself, "if you worked out a bit more, you'll look better etc etc." but I never did. I didn't even bother. There were days where I'd be satisfied with my body, and days where I wasn't.

Anyway, I started out having this "healthy" lifestyle on a Tuesday/Monday, August 2012. It all started when I decided to go for a jog. I would normally discourage myself to go for jogs because I felt "embarrassed" of what people would think.. and thinking back, it was such a silly thing to think! But my mum motivated me to just go for a jog. I told her that I felt embarrassed going for a jog and she said, "What for? Just go for it." and it hit me that it was my body that was running and it was for my own good and for my health and I don't run to please anyone but myself! So.. I went for my first jog ever alone and it felt REALLY NICE AND AMAZING AND I LOVED IT SO MUCH and I wanted to do more. So I did it more.. And then I began to eat healthy and stopped eating food from the school's canteen. I honestly really dislike what they serve at the school's canteen. But hey, at least I managed to have my share of unhealthy, yummy, fried unhealthy, processed food before I actually realized that they're so bad for health. So kids, eat in moderation but you've gotta get yo ass of those food. But it's all up to you he he. But try to eat more fuits and vegetable and less deep fried food and stuff and processed food too yeah. You can watch "Food for a change." To see how bad processed, preserved canned food are etc etc etc. But eat in moderation laaaaaa.

And I remember during my second jog, there was this aunty that would cheer me on and give me thumbs up and other people too! And I felt really happy and motivated about it. It really did lift my mood up and it just felt, really nice! Getting motivation and being motivated when you're tired. Anyway, it all started from that first jog. And I'm really grateful for it. And the more I jogged each day, the more satisfied I felt with myself and my being and my health and stuff like that.

Brb I've got to help my mum take out the clothes.
Okay done, I helped her separate the laundry too!

Okay so anyway, what I've realized is that, the only person and the only thing to keep you motivated is you and your mind and yourself. It's all in your head to tell you whether you can do it or not. But please, always tell yourself that you can do it! Because, the sky is really your limit to push yourself to be a better you. And also to do something that you never think you could do. It's all mental strength, and also mental strength to build body strength. So when you equate it, it's mental strength for your body and your spirit. Everything is in your mind really.. How you feel, what you do, what you think you could do. It's all in your mind, and how you view things. It really does reflect on your life.

Wowowow there's so much to say this might get messy.

Anyway, I decided to stop eating deep fried food and processed food (I loved them so much yum yum yum) because of the oil and fat content, and as some of you know, it's always 80%/70% diet and 20%/30% exercise to be fit/healthy or whatever. I ate more fruits, more fish, more vegetable and lowered down my carbs and drank loads more of water (I love water it's the best thing ever y'all). Click here to read up the benefits of water B) Oh and also, I made sure I had breakfast every morning because breakfast is really important and some people say that they just can't eat breakfast in the morning BUT IT'S ALL IN DA MIND, REALLY. We have breakfast for a reason. Okay, so click here to read up the importance of breakfast! And once you start eating healthy, you don't want to stop, because when you eat healthy, you know that you're feeding your body with healthy stuff. And it's so important to love your body enough to supply it with vitamins and nutrients! :)

Well, I do eat crap once in a while, because we have to eat food good for your health and also good for your soul :)

There are times, I have to admit, where I'd go overboard with my diet.. Oh wait, speaking of diet. I hate how people misconcept the meaning of "diet" it doesn't simply mean, eat less, or eat nothing at all. It simply means.. having a balanced and well nourished diet. Having the right amount of vegetables, protein, carbs etc etc. So don't starve yourself because if you do starve yourself.. how's your body gonna learn how to burn those fats? And your metabolism would be pretty messed up. And it's really bad for your health and stuff so don't ok. Have a balanced diet. Have loads of fruits and nuts and water for snacks. Oh and sometimes, you could be thirsty instead of hungry, so drink water to know if you're really hungry. Yeah water. WATER. But it's important to eat after every three hours and by that I meant healthy snacks! In small portions (nuts and fruits and etc) to fuel your body (but make sure your portion's moderate) to booooost your metabolism! :)

ANYWAY, yeah, sometimes I'd go overboard with my diet and stuff. And like I'd feel crap if I think I've eaten too much or if I've eaten crap and I know that it wasn't good for my body to think that way, but I still decided to think that way. And yeah, it wasn't good for my body and my mind and for me. And yeah, I began to realize that, whatever I eat, and whatever I put into my body, I shouldn't regret or whatever. It was my choice and my decision at that moment and I shouldn't regret it. Because like they say, one crap meal won't affect your health or make you gain or anything, same as one good meal. I don't know how to say it properly, but don't regret what you eat, and even if you think you're gonna regret, always think before you eat and make the right decision. And it's okay, to eat junk once in awhile, it's okay. It's also okay to fulfill your cravings. Because we only live once (lol) which is true, and being healthy is a life style, and by life style, I mean by having a balance in everything you do.

And also, don't worry so much on the scale on your weighing machine. It's not about the numbers or whatever. It's about your health and stuff like that. It's about exercising and having a healthy diet. It's about nourishing your body and taking care of your body. It's about loving yourself, and loving what you have and always striving to improve yourself more and more.

Anyway, I should stop saying anyway, but I was shocked when I saw these pictures of myself before.. Wait let me find a before and after picture!

These were before (I'm choosing these pictures cuz I'm wearing the same outift lol) :

These pictures were taken during June I think..

And after! :

These pictures were taken during December!

Anyway, that's about it! Because I've been getting questions and stuff, so I decided to share it with you guys! And stuff :) If there's any questions or anything you can comment below or whatever. I'd really like to help :)

The Glass

So here's a poem I did a few days ago :)


I examined you from the distance in the car.
I was imprisoned by the moving traffic and a door.
But I could see you from the glass that I’m grateful for.
I examined your existence.
You walked pass slowly,
On the street, passing by an art gallery.
Looking through the glass, so slow and steady.
Your speed decreased, as the movement of my eyelids did.
You were looking at a painting, still walking with a slower speed.
I examined your back, like how you did with the painting.
And I saw your existence, painted on the glass
Your reflection, on the plain mirror canvas.
You moved on from that painting, as I was still examining you.
You looked straight and your speed was increasing.
What I saw was two men walking, side by side once more.
The traffic light was still red, I was stationary.
You were still walking by your side and by yourself.
I saw you turned to your left again.
Was it another painting?
I saw you turn to your left again.
The traffic light turned green.
You were looking at your reflection, I think.

Lovers of my life.

I saw the love of my life who never loved me back. I saw a face, whose personality I made up by what he did. I saw what he wore, I was analyzing his hair, the parting or what not, his shoes, his face shape and was selfishly attracted I was to it. But how? It frustrates me having to question this but. How can one's exterior attract me just like that. I met many lovers of my life who never loved me back. People by the street. And stuff. And I'm calling them lovers of my life because they did, how ever trigger one of my glands to secret oxytocin.. I'm very sure of that.