Hello all! I've finally pushed and forced myself to blog. I forgot how it actually feels like, putting your mind into saying and typing something. I don't know. I feel so foreign now it's so weird. I feel so odd now. It's weird!
I used to be the type that would blog almost all the time and I would love it. But now, I don't really do it anymore. And I think that I should continue doing it. I have a brain, and I need to use it to think. I mean, I do think, but this is a different thing to think about. I mean, it requires more brain since I'm typing and stuff.. oh god you see. my iq and eq has gone down.
Well, the holidays has been very very good so far and I'm happy with everything. But then again, it's human nature to be unsatisfied with everything. I'm too caught up with happiness and I'm too much in the flow that it's frustrating me. I want to do something. I really do. But when I have to do something, (i.e driving classes ugh) I get heavy hearted. I don't know..
And another reason why I stopped blogging is because I contradict myself a lot. And I change subjects a lot and then go back to it. I don't know. And I type I don't know a lot. Anyway, I'm dreading to go for driving classes. I don't know why. Actually, I do know why. I just hate how the van has to pick me up, and then how I'd be left there and everything's just so tensed at that place. I don't know how to put it. But I know things will be better if I don't think so much.
And I've got to get my license done, anyway. I just wished that the driving instructor would be my uncle or something. I'm sorry that I sound like a spoilt brat but ugh I'm really dreading the whole driving thing. But I'm doing it to lessen burden and stuff. And driving is fun, actually. But the whole process of (the whole process is actually nothing) driving is so.. (well it's actually nothing). But then again, I'm blessed that I have the privilege to drive.
Other than that, I'm following my dad to the office tomorrow to learn some c double-o l stuff and I'm pretty excited I guess. But I'm more excited knowing that I have to wake up early. And I do enjoy waking up early. Because I've been waking up at 10.30 and I hate it so so much. I love waking up early in the morning and having a bad ass breakfast.
Anyway, I really do hope that I'd continue blogging. Although, I feel like I haven't really gotten back the hang of it.. If there really is a "hang" to get back to.
Oh! and +++ I'm going for a bbq tomorrow. Can't wait! :>
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